tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20340018023664869472024-02-08T05:20:13.255-08:00Karley's CornerKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.comBlogger57125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-23438957180901814382014-04-10T20:50:00.000-07:002014-04-10T20:50:30.176-07:00Abide With Me<br />
As the Hymn sweetly states in "Abide With Me" I need Thy presence every passing hour; What by Thy grace can foil the tempters power. Who like Thyself, my guide and stay can be? Through cloud and sunshine Lord abide with me. I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless; Ills have no weight and tears no bitterness; Where is death's sting? Where grave, thy victory. I triumph still if though abide with me Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes; Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies, Heaven's morning breaks, and earth's vain shadows flee; In life, In death, O Lord abide with me.<br />
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I have been blessed to have had many people in my life that I know the Savior, Jesus Christ has sent. I would like to dedicate this post to Bishop Glenn and Lynnette Judd. I grew up from the time I was 8 knowing these wonderful people. Bishop Judd was our home teacher for years, and his sweet wife Lynnette came with him. They lived just up the block and around the corner from us. I also grew up knowing their sons and daughters, as well as their grandchildren. They are the kindest family and I have a huge part of my heart within those connections.<br />
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They have slowed down, their bodies tired, but their testimony's as strong as ever. Two weeks ago my Mom called and told me that Sister Judd had passed away. My heart ached for her and her sweet husband and family. Just after the family prayer was offered the day they laid her to rest Bishop Judd knelt down and kissed her one last time on this earth, he then sweetly whispered, I will see you in a couple of days. He passed away nine days later. They were married 71 years. Whenever I saw them they were holding hands and always happy. They helped me through boys, dating and heartbreak. They also taught me the most important relationship is with our Savior, Jesus Christ. It is comforting to know that the Savior assured Bishop Judd that he would not have to wait long to be with his loving wife Lynnette.<br />
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Through life and now death, their testimony's continue to teach me. I want that sweet and tender love in my life. Someone who will go through this life with me and into eternity. I pray every day that one day when my Father in Heaven will have found that person for me, that I can experience the love that I know the Judd's had for each other.<br />
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I loved every minute of General Conference. I love the leaders of our church and the examples that they are to me. I am thankful that the Lord knows who I am and sends such special people into my life that I call friends.<br />
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I am grateful beyond measure for this Easter season and for the true meaning of Easter. I am grateful for the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ. I am thankful for the atonement that He bore for me. I am humbled at the sacrifice He bore as hung on the cross for me. I have a strong and steadfast testimony of these truths. <br />
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There are so many sweet and tender people in my life that have left imprints forever in my heart. I believe the imprints and people in my circle of family and friends are a direct gift and an eternal blessing.<br />
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I am grateful for a loving Father who blesses me, when I struggle to understand why certain burdens are placed upon us. I know that I need to push forward with a steadfastness in Christ and endure to the end as we have learned in the scriptures. I believe in miracles, I believe in timing and I know that the Savior knows me.<br />
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So as we will say Goodbye on Saturday, for Bishop Judd, I will have a prayer in my heart for the miracle he and his wife Lynnette have always been for me. For their family and the blessings that have come into my life through my association with each of them.<br />
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God be with you til we meet again.<br />
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Karley<br />
<br />Karley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-50287482434385138792014-01-26T02:52:00.000-08:002014-01-26T02:52:10.159-08:00Feeling Broken and ThankfulHello Friends and family,<br />
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It is 3am and I am wide awake. I think that I should have been born a vampire! Tonight I have so many thoughts running through my head and I am not sure how to place them each in their own compartment so I thought I would share a few of them here.<br />
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This past month has been interesting to say the least! I ended up back at my favorite resort, McKay Dee Hospital with MRSA and cellulitis in my foot and leg. It actually was really scary. I have tried to downplay how I felt when I was laying in a hospital bed once again feeling sicker than I have for a very long time. I am not sure why the Lord has chosen to allow me to experience health challenges. I have begun to get used to physical pain however it takes a toll on me emotionally at times. This bout with MRSA was a tough one. I do not remember every hurting so much before. I am sure I have probably said that before, but I tend to forgot how much something hurts when I hurt more often physically than I even realize. I told my Mom in the emergency room that if they could not help me I wanted to die. I usually try not to let her know how scared I am at times. She listened and reassured me that I would be okay. If my Mom tells me I will be okay, I believe her. She also was taking pictures of my foot with her phone, which at the time I did not find humor in but I do now... I am just thankful she did not post them on facebook. HA!<br />
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It has been two weeks today since I was in the hospital. I cope better if I just push through the pain and try to focus on other things. I remember the second night it was probably close to 3:30 am like it is now and I was hurting so much, I had called the nurse and asked her for pain medicine. She was her way to my room and I was praying with everything I could muster up at the time that I could make it until she came and gave me the medication in my IV. It was just moments later that she came in and I felt much better after the meds. I was foggy to say the least but while I was laying there I thought of how great the pain would have been if the Savior had not endured so much of my pain in the Garden of Gethsemane. I silently thanked Him for his precious gift so that I could rest. I realized in the dark that night that He was with me. That in the silence of that room he waited with me until the pain could be controlled. There are no words I can ever express to Him for his unconditional love for me.<br />
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I am very thankful for the First Presidency and the apostles of our church. I am thankful for their love and compassion for each member of the gospel. I am grateful that we have the opportunity to listen and be blessed through them.<br />
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I was praying tonight and thought of Elder Holland and my sweet friend Kenneth Cope. Kenneth wrote a song several years ago entitled "Broken" that song has comforted me many days and nights when I have been broken. Elder Holland teaches me every time I hear him talk. He is such a sweet and gentle man and I soak up every word I hear. Without sharing something very sacred, I know that the Lord listens, hears us and sends people into our lives for a specific season. <br />
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I am so thankful for my friends. There are days my heart is broken when I think of my little girl sitting on the Savior's lap instead of mine. I miss her. I know there are other mothers that have experienced the loss of a child through miscarriage, but unless you have walked that terrible road it is hard to understand how broken your heart is everyday. When I lost her, I lost a part of me. The Savior has a way of comforting us I believe in ways that we individually need. In my case, I thank Him for my sweet friend Lindsay Cutler. She is such a gift to me and her children have replaced some of the sorrow I feel with such sweet and tender moments I spend with them. I love it when the babies, especially Kate will rest her head on my shoulder. I try to soak up every moment I can and sneak all the kisses I can to her. I look into those little eyes of Kate who is feisty and sweet and long for my baby, but realize how blessed I am to have that little baby who seems to know when I need her most. I am thankful to Dave and Lindsay for sharing Jett, Kate and Lexie with me. They have provided much needed comfort, laughter and love. There are no words to express the love I feel for them.<br />
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The Savior brought another sweet friend into my life during last summer. We immediately became good friends and I treasure the time I spend with him. I was told not long ago that I needed to share the best part of me with him. It has really made me search and ponder what the best part of me really is. It is a journey that I am still on. I do know how blessed I am and how thankful I am for my friend and for the gift his friendship is to me. To be honest, I have no idea what the Lord has in store, but I trust it because I trust Him. I am thankful that we are given promptings and time to search with all of our hearts how we can best serve each other and serve the Lord. I love my friend, I love the man who shared his promptings with me so that I could do my part. I really am the one who has been blessed in my friendship with my sweet friend and I am so thankful for his example to me, for his ability to make me laugh and for his gentle words that provide comfort as we travel this journey together.<br />
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I am thankful that I am broken and that the Savior will heal me, He will heal all of us as we place our hearts and trust with Him.<br />
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I love the gospel. I love the Savior. I love that He knows the end from the beginning and walks silently beside each of us. <br />
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Have a great Sunday! Let's talk soon.<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-77718096261167472642013-11-26T00:25:00.000-08:002013-11-26T00:25:14.927-08:00Thanksgiving.....Hello friends and family,<br />
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I cannot believe another year has passed by so quickly! This year I have many things I am thankful for. My family is my greatest blessing, there are no words to express the love I have for each of them in my heart. I have loving brothers, a sister, nieces and nephews and cousins that I love deeply. I am grateful for the laughter and the tears that we share together through the years. I have been blessed with a Mother that is also my best friend. I don't know what I did to get to be her daughter but I am profoundly grateful for her. She has always been there for me. In good times and in bad. She loves me unconditionally and I thank my Heavenly Father for every day and every minute I have with her. I have also been blessed with two fathers. My dad passed away from lung cancer 13 years ago. He taught me some difficult lessons during his time here on earth and while our relationship was somewhat strained he loved me in the only way he knew how and for that I am grateful. I also have been blessed with a wonderful step-father who has been like the kind of father I always dreamed of having as a child. He is fun, he loves me, he helps me and inspires me to be better. I often wonder what I did to have a Dad who is there for me whenever I need him.<br />
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I am thankful for my friends. I am one very lucky girl who has been blessed with the best friends. I am so grateful for the laughter, the tears and all of the fun memories and times I have with them. I feel so lucky to have friends I had since grade school, high school, college and in life. I love to laugh and have the best time when I am around all of you. I am thankful for your examples in my life. You have each touched me in ways that I can never repay you for. I am so thankful for the times we get together and visits on the phone that keep us connected. I know time is hard to come by and I appreciate every moment I spend connecting with all of you. I love you all deeply!<br />
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I am thankful for my home and my neighbors. I am grateful for my crazy basset hound, she drives me crazy but she also has saved my life several times. I am so thankful for the nights when my sugar drops and she instinctively knows to wake me up. She has known from the time she was six weeks old and I am lucky to have her. She also is funny and keeps me laughing.<br />
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I am thankful for the gospel for our Prophet, his counselors and apostles. I am deeply humbled by their examples in my life. I am grateful beyond measure for what they teach me and how much they love each of us.<br />
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I am thankful for personal revelation. I am learning more everyday how to "Be Still and know that I (He) is God" and is there for us both in sunlight and in rain. If we are still and listen we can hear Him teach us in those tender moments.<br />
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I am thankful for music and for the gift of singing that the Savior has blessed my life with. I did not think I would ever sing again after two huge blood clots passed through my heart and into my lungs. While there has been significant damage my little voice is in there.<br />
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I am thankful for the future and for the promise of a new day. I want to make the most of every day. Spend time with those I love and express my love to them. Thank you for sharing your time with me.<br />
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I am thankful for a loving Savior, for His atoning sacrifice and for the beautiful blessings that He bore for me. There are no words to express my deep and abiding love for him. <br />
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Thank you all for being a part of my life. Thank you for your friendships, your laughter, sharing your sweet babies and life in general with me. I am a better person because of all of you.<br />
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As I spend the weekend and holiday with family, I wish all of you the blessings of your heart. Let's stay in touch!<br />
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Love,<br />
Karley<br />
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Karley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-58615149420795500412013-09-15T22:51:00.001-07:002013-09-15T22:51:29.534-07:00What I know....Hello friends and family,<br />
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I have started this post several times, left it and then came back to it and here we are once again. I went through some of my old blogs, I was a mess for several years. In looking back at how sad I was and what I was going through really made me reflect on how far I have come and how far I still have to go.<br />
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Life has a funny way of teaching you lessons that you never expected to learn. I have found this out recently. I have to thank my Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ for the past three years. I have learned so much about love, faith and simply believing in things that are not seen, but felt. I have to say that I would not trade a moment of the pain that I have endured for anything. It actually has been a gift and a great learning experience for me.<br />
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Life changes quickly and all of a sudden you are standing in Holy Places with people and learning how much the Lord loves you, despite all of the mistakes that we sometimes make in this life. I am grateful beyond words for the places and people that He has sent into my life. I can never repay Him for these treasured gifts that He has given me.<br />
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I had the opportunity to sit down and visit with someone I consider one of my greatest hero's and mentors. It was still and sweet and answered many long awaited questions to my heart and mind. It has made me a different person, I want to be better, I want to love more and express that love to everyone. <br />
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One of most simple and profound things that we can do in this life is express our love to each other. So, if I start telling you I love you and I have not done that before, accept my apology for not doing so and accept the fact that I may be telling you often..:)<br />
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I am so grateful for a friend of mine who has helped my tackle one of my biggest and most emotional issues in my life. My weight. It will be a long journey. But I can say now that I am ready to take it. It is so strange to see me actually be willing to talk about my weight and I have someone who loves me unconditionally and wants to help me not because he has too, but because he wants too. I will keep you posted as to my progress, it a new beginning and will be a long road, but I am optimistic and ready for change.<br />
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I am excited to finally be well enough to be working from home and hope to be back in full swing the first of the year.<br />
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For the first time in a while, I have seen the sun again. It was a long winter and I am grateful for the seasons and what each one has taught me.<br />
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I am thankful for a loving family. I struck the jackpot with good parents and siblings that teach me through their examples.<br />
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My voice is coming back slowly, but it is in there somewhere. With all of the damage done to my lungs, I really worried that I would never sing again. When I hit my half way point with my weight loss, I am going to record a song about the journey (with a little help from my friends) and then when I am at my goal, start working on a project with several songs... <br />
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Well it is late, which is not a shock I am sure to any of you. I love you all and am thankful for your examples in my life. I could not do it without you!!<br />
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Love, <br />
Karley XOXOXO<br />
<br />Karley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-16708777731172866332013-07-02T00:59:00.002-07:002013-07-02T00:59:56.693-07:00Hello my friends, Hello! (Nothing to worry about, just sounded like a Neil Diamond song for a minute!)Hi Friends and Family,<br />
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I am back! That was a nice little year since I posted last! I am such a slacker!! Life continues to have a surprise around every corner for me. I am thankful to have a great family and wonderful friends who laugh and cry with me... (This often can happen in the same conversation at times!)<br />
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I am hanging in there. My health is back on track, however my back is another story. I have 6 herniated disc's and sciatica in my lower back... not so much fun, I would not recommend have a back that is limiting when you are ready to get back to life!<br />
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I spent almost five years under the radar from speaking in my ward. Sunday, that came to an end. I spoke about how the Savior's love for me and the wonderful blessings that can come to us through adversity. I am a lucky girl to know that He loves me enough to give me trials that teach me about the atonement and how it not only applies to sin, but also to the pain that we often endure in this life.<br />
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My family always goes to Bear Lake over the fourth of July. I will not be going this year.... It is a bummer, with 6 herniated disc's in my back and sciatica in my lower back, I would miserable and not a happy camper. I wish I could be with them, but there is always next year!<br />
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I am enjoying my home and my sweet neighbors. I love living in a culdesac! (not sure I spelled that right) After church yesterday my cute neighbor who is 12 brought me little cupcakes she made because she said she liked my talk. It was sweet. They were grape I believe...I have never had a grape cupcake! LOL<br />
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I love all the babies in my ward! It is so much fun to be the honorary Auntie and makes losing my baby a little easier when I hold a sweet little one.<br />
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Well I will write more this week and post pictures! Until then carry on and know that I am thankful for all of you.<br />
Let's talk soon!<br />
Karley<br />
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<br />Karley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-80721228251261696392012-11-08T22:46:00.000-08:002012-11-08T22:46:03.162-08:00A 3 year old's perspective!Hello Family and Friends,<br />
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It has been months since I have updated my blog. It is crazy how fast time goes by! I cannot believe how fast this past year has zipped on by. I am so looking forward to going back to work soon.<br />
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My friend's little boy was jumping in my pile of leaves this afternoon. I loved doing that when I was a little girl. Some days I wish that jumping in leaves was as much fun now, with my luck I would break a leg.... <br />
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Anyway, he jumped in the smaller portion of the leaves and landed pretty hard, he got up dusted his pants off and then said with a sigh.."life is pretty hard sometimes" It made me laugh so hard. His rough landing was pretty hard, it also has made me think about what we can learn, when life truly is really hard.<br />
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The election this year was pretty hard on my nerves at times, I got so sick of hearing everyone fighting each other. To be honest, I wish there had been a diffrerent outcome. I will support our President and pray for him and for our country.<br />
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I was talking to a good friend last week who is going through some very hard times. Life for him has been very hard, and he struggles daily to be strong and endure the challenges we are all given. I have so much respect for him for his trials have been long and continue to be hard.<br />
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As hard as life can be, it also can bring such happiness and joy to all of us. I have a brand new niece. Her name is Chloe. She is adorable. I held her shortly after she was born and thought to myself what a gift she is to our family. When I held her I wondered how thin the veil truly was and how close that sweet baby is to our Father in Heaven. I think I might call and pay her a little visit. She makes me happy. She was born the same month my baby would have been born, if I had not miscarried.<br />
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I have been writing something I am grateful for this month. It kind of makes me feel bad that I do not write something every day of the year that I am thankful for. There are so many blessings I have been given and I want you to know how blessed my life is for those gifts everyday, not just in November.<br />
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My Christmas decorations are up early this year. Thanks to my friend Tracy Barlow for helping me drag them all out and put them up. It is nice to have a dear friend who happens to be a very talented florist and professional decorator. My house feels so cozy. As much as I love having them up this early, I am sure I will be wanting to rip them down by Christmas..LOL<br />
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I told Tracy before I opened up my Monica closet (If you watched Friends, you will know what I mean, she was OCD about her house but had a secret closet that was filled to the brim with stuff) mine looks just like that..... Now the secret is out.... When I opened the closet Tracy just laughed, it is great that he knows me so well. My goal after Christmas is to organize my Monica closet.....LOL<br />
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I now need to think about Christmas shopping.. I don't have a ton to do, but I enjoy thinking about what my loved ones and friends would like as a gift from me. <br />
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Christmas is my favorite time of the year. I am thankful for the birth of our Savior and His sacrifice for each of us.<br />
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I want all of you to know (this just might be my mom, since I am sure not many people read this) how much you mean to me. I am so lucky to have so many dear friends and wonderful family who are so good to me. <br />
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I sure love my home and the peace I find here. I have been writing several new songs and look forward to one day finishing a collection of my music. Even when life is hard, I find solace in being able to sit down and express my feelings through music. <br />
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Well... I am going to bed! It is late and hopefully I will be able to sleep. I learned a great lesson today from little Josh Sarmento... Yes, life is hard, yes we will hit some bumps in the road and yes we are loved beyond our comprehension from the One who sacrificed His life so that ours would be eaiser. <br />
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Please keep in touch with me. I really do love you all and let's do lunch!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-59425970461098090012012-06-26T00:28:00.000-07:002012-06-26T00:28:38.811-07:00Miracles HappenHello family and friends,<br />
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It has been a long time since I have posted anything. I never have been great at writing in a journal, so it stands to reason that I am not on top of keeping my blog current.<br />
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There have been so many amazing things that have happened to people I love in the past couple of months. Quiet miracles, new babies, new jobs and new hope. I am so happy for all of the great things happening to the most deserving people I love. <br />
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Paul and Lynette Cardall just had a little baby girl a couple of weeks ago. I am so happy for them and their sweet family. Eliza is such a gift to this world. Paul and Lynette are truly gifts in my life and have taught me as Paul would say "Miracles Happen" I can hardly wait to give little Eliza a hug. I am thankful for the Lord's hand in blessing my life with such good people.<br />
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I have a friend who is struggling so much regarding the gospel. He feels that he is too far away and does not believe that he can come back. I love him and I want him to know that our Savior is waiting with open arms and all of the love He has for my friend, if he will only ask.... I pray for him every day but only he can ask the Lord and I know our Savior's arms are waiting to hold him as he finds his way back.<br />
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I have another friend who lost his wife and baby a little over a year ago. He is raising three small children by himself and just relocated to go to medical school. He amazes me and reminds me daily to "press forward with a steadfastness in Christ" What a wonderful example he is to me.<br />
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I am so lucky where I live, I love my home and have a wonderful ward. I can never repay them for their love and support in my life over the past few years. Several people have asked me lately just what is going on in my life. Here is the readers digest version....... I have had 2 PE's (blood clots) that went through my heart and into my lungs doing extensive damage to my heart and lungs. It also resulted in a blood disorder. They found three tumors during that time, one behind my heart, one in my liver and some in my lower back. They did surgery to remove the tumor behind my heart a year ago, it was pretty rough, but I am tough and I made it! I lost a baby, went through a divorce, lost a step-son and thought I had hit rock bottom. Then..... I was in a terrible car accident that changed my life pretty much forever. I have Type 1 diabetes so that complicates everything and have had severe side effects due to the trauma my body has faced. I won't bore you with anymore details, and I am not writing this so that you feel sorry for me. The truth is, I would go through all of it again, to know the Savior and trust Him with my life. I have never been closer to Him and have learned that I would never have made it through these temporary set backs in life without Him.<br />
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My ward is one of the most precious gifts in my life. There are countless people who have brought in meals, called, stopped by, prayed for me and always lift my spirits. I can never repay them for the love and support that they are to me.<br />
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I love my family, they are crazy and fun and I do not know what I would do without them. My mom and Chuck have been there for me whenever I have needed them. It is amazing that Mothers just know when their children need them, my Mom has always been there for me and I love her very much.<br />
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My nieces are coming for two weeks to visit from California. I am so excited to see them and spend some time with them. I love all of my nieces and nephews, they are great kids who have awesome parents!<br />
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I apologize if sometimes I get a little wimpy on facebook, I try to stay positive, but sometimes it just sucks!<br />
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The bottom line is simply this (Paul I am borrowing this from you) Miracles do happen, they happen every day. I see them in my life, in the lives of those I love and those I will know one day. I am thankful for the many miracles I have felt, seen and been a part of. I love all of you! <br />
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Let's go to lunch soon.... give me a call, I would love to hear from all of you.<br />
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Love, <br />
KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-62805272250189285702012-05-06T19:34:00.000-07:002012-05-06T19:34:59.350-07:00Songs Waiting To Be Sung....Hello Family and friends,
I only made one post in April and now the entire format has been changed.... It bugs me! Life never is dull around here for sure. The past month has been full of change and suprises. I am learning that the older I get the harder change is for me!
Yesterday I had a fun day with my Mom and sister-in-laws, Jamie and Emily. We went to lunch for Mother's Day with my Mom and a bunch of her friends. It was a good time. I always love to spend time with family. Next weekend I am having Mom and Chuck over for dinner for Mother's Day..
I was called about 6 weeks ago to be the compassionate service leader in my ward. I love my calling and am thankful that I can serve my Father in Heaven.
It is Ethan's 6th birthday this month. Time really flies by. I miss him so much. It is hard for me to believe that Josh and Emily felt it was the right thing to do to tell him I had died when I filed for divorce from Josh. I would never do anything that cruel to a child. I would love to send him a present, but how would they explain that when they have lied to him.
For now, I wait and I pray for Ethan, that he will grow up and be happy and mentally well. he has a rough road ahead for him with the challenges of both of his parents, but he also has a loving Savior who I know is with him always. That is the comfort and peace that I find in such a sad situation.
You might be wondering what the title of my post means. I have had an amazing and sacred experience in writing a song. I would love to elaboate more, but it not my story alone to tell. I will fill you in later if that is something all parties are comfortable in sharing.
I would like to tell you that I know heaven is very close. I know that our loved ones are closer than we think and I believe that they are involved in our lives from the other side of the veil. What a comforting thought it is to know that even though our earthly eyes cannot see them, they live in our hearts. Just because death seperates us for now, it does not change the relationships we have with them.
There are many songs to be sung. Many hearts to be healed and lessons to be learned. It is not always easy, but we have angels that surround us from the other side, who love us.
Have a great week and let's talk soon!
KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-54455812760334730832012-04-06T21:48:00.001-07:002012-04-06T22:14:55.269-07:00The rocks on my dresserHello friends and family,<br />
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I have two rocks that sit on my dresser. They are rocks my friend Mandi Felici brought me back from the Garden of Gethesmane. I pick them up often and hold them, wondering how long they had been there, where they there when the Savior atoned for my sins? Did He step on them as he walked the dusty road? Did His tears fall on them as He cried to His Father? <br />
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I lost a good friend this past week. She was 31 years old. Her name is Camille Linsley. I have known Camille and her family for many years. They hold a very special place in my heart. They have endured trials I cannot begin to comprehend. It was not even two years ago they lost their son Mike. He was best friends with my brother and a very good friend to me also. Camille has two small children, Desi 3, and Aiden 8, and her sweet husband Allen. Allen's father was in my singles bishopric years ago, what a wonderful family. I have learned so much about Christlike love from all of them.<br />
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As I thought of this weekend and the reasons that we celebrate Easter. I held those two rocks in my hand. I thought of this past week and how heartwrenching and difficult it has been. I thought of those two little children and how much they are going to miss their mommy. I thought of how much I will miss Camille's laugh and her sarcasm. I remember when her brother Mike died her comforting me. That is the kind of person that she is.<br />
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I have thought of the atonement and how much the Savior bore for each of us. How although sometimes it has been hard to believe that she is gone, He suffered that those of us here would hurt far less because of His love for us.<br />
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I do not understand why things like this happen in life. They hurt. But I trust my Savior, for without Him and the knowledge that Camille is with him and Mike, I don't think we could endure the pain of this temporary seperation. My heart aches for Allen. I am humbled at the grace Heavenly Father will provide him in the upcoming months and years. I am thankful that he, Camille and their children are sealed for time and all eternity.<br />
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April is a bittsweet month for me. I have lost several friends. They were called home early. I miss them everyday. I am thankful however for Jesus Christ, for His atonement, and for His life in each of our behalfs.<br />
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This Easter we have the opportunity to attend church. It means more to me than ever. "That He should care for me, enough to die for me" It is my prayer that each of us remembers His atoning sacrfice and His death and ressurection in each of our lives. For I know that my Reedemer lives.Karley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-82943628382697520742012-03-23T23:40:00.000-07:002012-03-23T23:40:39.350-07:00It is all about family!Hello family and friends,<br />
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Let's just say right up front that I have been a slacker keeping up on my blog. I always have good intentions but they have not gotton me very far this month!<br />
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My parents are going to see my nieces this next week. They are going down to be there so that Maggie and Francis have a date with Grandpa to their Daddy daughter date on Tuesday. It is so nice of my parents to go down and be able to be there for them. It will be a fun week for them and for the girls. I wish I was going to see them.<br />
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I am very lucky to have such a wonderful family. I have brothers that honor their priesthood and are incredible fathers and husbands. All of my brothers are hard workers. They love their kiddos and all of my nieces and nephews are lucky to have such wonderful parents, grandparents, aunties and uncles.<br />
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I am thankful for the church and the knowledge that family is forever. That we will be together forever. I love the saying "Family is Everything" I do not know what I would do without my siblings and the examples they are to me.<br />
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My sister Katie and baby Richard are coming to see me the end of April. I am so excited to spend the week with them. Richard is 15 months old and walking. I can hardly wait to give that baby a hug. Katie and I are like twins, we are so much alike... We laugh til we are sick and talk for hours about everything...<br />
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I have the best parents, they are loving, giving and they serve the Lord always. I hope to be like them one day.<br />
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Well I am off to bed, I am going to the temple in the morning. Let's talk soon!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-72545852606866427862012-02-24T00:29:00.000-08:002012-02-24T00:29:01.031-08:00Laughing Through The Tears.....Hello Family and Friends,<br />
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Today I thought I may be crazy!! This of course is not news to many of you, or is the first time I have thought this of myself! One minute I was crying for no apparent reason and the next minute I was laughing my guts out with my sister and talking about random things Katie and I only find funny!<br />
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I feel like I have been on a roller coaster ride for a long time. Just when I think that the ride is over, someone pushes a button and off I go again... It is rather annoying to say the least.<br />
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I am thankful for emotions most of the time.. I would much rather laugh than cry for sure. However, certain situations merit both emotions. It cleanses the soul to have a good cry and warms the heart with a good laugh!<br />
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Life has been bittersweet the past couple of weeks. Our family has experienced some very tender moments as we have lost family members to soon. I am thankful for the knowledge that we have in knowing we will be together again oneday.<br />
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One of my favorite songs is "The Prayer" by David Foster. I love the music and lyrics. I would like to share them with you...<br />
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I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go <br />
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know <br />
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way <br />
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace <br />
To a place where we'll be safe <br />
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I pray we 'Il find your light, and hold it in our hearts <br />
When stars go out each night, <br />
Remind us where you are <br />
Let this be our prayer, when shadows fill our day <br />
Help us find a place, guide us with your grace <br />
Give us faith so we'll be safe <br />
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A world where pain and sorrow will be ended <br />
And every heart that's broken will he mended <br />
And we'll remember we are all God's children <br />
Reaching out to touch you <br />
Reaching to the sky <br />
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We ask that life be kind, and watch us from above <br />
We hope each soul will find another soul to love <br />
Let this be our prayer, just like every child <br />
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Who needs to find a place, guide us with your grace <br />
Give us faith so we'll be safe <br />
Needs to find a place, guide us with your grace <br />
Give us faith so we'll be safe <br />
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I have decided as I weather a little storm here and there, that I need to remember these lyrics and live by them. I am grateful to all of you for being answers to my prayers and for hanging in there with me when I am sure you would like to strangle me at times...LOL Have a great weekend and let's talk soon!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-66060912300632637992012-02-14T00:21:00.000-08:002012-02-14T00:21:30.596-08:00Happy Valentine's Day!Hello Friends and Family,<br />
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Well.... I bet that you thought I would be the last person writing a blog on Valentines Day. The truth is, I am somewhat surprised myself! I have found myself thinking a lot about "love" and what Valentine's Day is really all about.<br />
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I have always felt loved by my Mother, My Grandparents, Friends, Brothers and Sisters and once in a while a boy played a role in this also. I have learned throughout my life that love comes in many different ways and so often as a wonderful suprise and feeling.<br />
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I have been a little bitter this year.... I never pictured myself in the current place which I am in. I never thought I would be divorced, never thought I would lose a baby, never thought my health would be so taxing on my body, never thought I would be writing a blog actually talking about these things, but here I am.<br />
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I have faced some really hard things to wrap my head around. Let me share something with you. I have always known that I am loved by my Father in Heaven and His Son, my Savior, Jesus Christ. How can I be bitter in my heart when He gave His life for me. When I think of what ultimate gift of love He has given me, how can I ask for more.<br />
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Now I know that this doesn't mean I don't hurt or wish that I could find someone to marry that will love me for who I am. I am ready to start dating again. It scares me, I am vulnerable and afraid of getting hurt. My divorce was so painful, it still is, and I know that I need to let go and trust that there is someone who is out there searching for the same things I am. I am far from perfect, I just want to love someone and have them love me back. I miss waking up next to someone, I miss talking for hours into the night, I miss someone holding me when I cry or taking my hand in his while we are in the car. I hope that I can find a man who honors his priesthood, loves the Savior, family and me. <br />
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I understand that the Lord's timing is not exactly how I would like things to go, but I trust Him and I know that He loves me.<br />
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I am so thankful for my nieces and nephews. They are 16 years old down to 13 months. They teach me about love. My step-son Ethan taught me so much about love. Children are the greatest gifts that we are blessed to share. Thanks to my brothers and sister for sharing these kiddies with me. They make my heart smile... <br />
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Well I am off to bed, I love you all, I love the gift of love that we have for each other and with each other not only on Valentine's Day but every day of the year.<br />
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Take care, hug someone a little longer today and thank the Lord for the blessing of His atoning sacrifice for that is the ultimate gift of love.<br />
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Let's talk soon!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-7643111806064843922012-02-06T23:49:00.000-08:002012-02-06T23:49:25.135-08:00Trying to Understand.......“Patient endurance permits us to cling to our faith in the Lord and our faith in His timing when we are being tossed about by the surf of circumstance. Even when a seeming undertow grasps us, somehow, in the tumbling, we are being carried forward, though battered and bruised.” <br />
― Neal A. Maxwell<br />
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My heart aches for the Cox family today. It pretty much has been on my mind all day and all night. I cannot shake the horrific murders of two innocent boys and the terrible death of their mother at the hands of their father. <br />
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Life is so fragile. You never know what will happen from one minute to the next. Circumstances out of our control often change courses that can cause undue hurt to our hearts and souls.<br />
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I have not blogged for almost a month. The truth is, I am struggling. My heart is tired and lonely. There are situations happening in my family and friends as well as my own life that have been taxing on my spirit. I don't feel that I have anything to give right now. So I have taken a break.<br />
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I am sorry if I have not been there for some of you. It is not personal at all. It is where I am in my life, I am trying to find myself. <br />
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I have a strong testimony of the gospel, I love the Savior and to Him I owe everything. He continues to hear me when I pray, when I cry and when I long to have a companion in my life again.<br />
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He is in the wind, in the sun, in my heart and in my soul. I am so thankful for that. I am thankful for all I have learned in this long winter season of my life. I would not change my relationship with Him for anything. I just hope to see spring around the corner soon.<br />
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I am ready to start dating again. How scary is that to throw it out there. I am scared and I am insecure. I want more than anything to be able to love someone with all of my heart, to be a mother and to have someone love me back. I hate being alone. It has been a long season and terrible length of time since I have felt loved by someone.<br />
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I want you to know that through the storms each of us face, I know there is the Son that shines through all of the rain and tears we shed. That Son is always with us and I am thankful for the warmth it brings me.<br />
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Keep in touch with me, I need all of you. I love you and am thankful for you and for the examples you have always been in my life.<br />
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Let's talk soon!<br />
KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-12969576069802221822012-01-04T23:22:00.000-08:002012-01-04T23:22:41.250-08:00"The New Year" 2012Hello Everyone!<br />
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Happy New Year! I cannot believe another year has gone by. It amazes me how fast time flies by. I ended up spending New Year's Eve and four other days back in the hospital. I think I have been in there enough that they should name the critical care unit "Karley's Wing" I am thankful for modern medicine and good doctors that have pulled me through the last several years. For those of you who don't know what is going on with my health I will give you the reader's digest version. I have a blood clotting disorder that has caused two massive PE's in my lungs over the past two years. Because of this disorder it is very hard to keep my INR at a theraputic level. When I get sick it goes crazy and because my blood is so thin I end up having GI bleeds and super high blood pressure. Having type 1 diabetes does not help as well. It has been frustrating and difficult to deal with. There have been times when I just want to give up! However, I am so thankful for a wonderful family and ward who support and lift me up during those dark hours. (One side note is that there are a couple of cute doctors I have met along the journey) of course, I am anything but pretty at that point....LOL<br />
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This year my goal is to be in good health, get a good job and really be able to live again. I am so happy in my home. I love my ward, my bishop, visiting teachers and friends and neighbors who go above and beyond in everything they do. They are an inspiration to me. I hope that I can oneday repay them somehow for all of the service and love they have shown. <br />
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I love my family. I went with my Mom for a little while today. I love her so much and am so thankful for her love for me. I am a lucky girl to have her for my mother.<br />
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While I was in the hospital, I was so sick that I told my mom I just wanted to die. I was at my wits end. She called my step-dad and my Uncle Rodney to give me a blessing. It was very sweet and sacred. In the blessing I was told that I needed to rest and take care of myself or the Lord would call me home early. It scared me so much. I have thought of those words often and will do whatever it takes to stay on this side of the veil and serve Him. I appreciate the patience the Lord has had with me. I can be very stubborn and I worry about everything. I told the Lord, I will turn it over to Him and I will follow His plan for me. <br />
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So.... I am trying not to worry so much and do everything medically that I need to so that my tired body can heal and be of service to others.<br />
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This month is bittersweet for me. My Dad died 10 years ago on January 13th. He was just 62 when he died. I miss him. He was very funny. My brother Mike and my sisters and I have his sense of humor which I am very thankful for. When he was in Utah the last time, I picked him up at the airport and was driving him, Susie and Amy around Salt Lake. He was sitting next to me in the car and said "Karley, I am so proud of you, I did not think about dying once while you were driving today.." thanks Dad! He always had something to say about everyone's driving.. <br />
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I still have not taken my Christmas decorations down. It is time! I love putting Christmas up, but it is so much work to take it down and then my house looks so empty... <br />
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I am looking forward to seeing an old friend this weekend. I bet I have not seen him in 13 years. I am kind of nervous and excited. He has always held a special place in my heart.<br />
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Well I suppose I should go to bed, so that I can work on the Christmas nightmare that awaits me tomorrow! <br />
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I wish you all a Happy New Year! This year I hope we see each other more, make time for the simple things and remember how much I love you all!<br />
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Let's talk soon!<br />
KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-86207238144760451262011-12-27T00:54:00.000-08:002011-12-27T00:54:04.065-08:00Christmas Blessings!Hello Friends and Family,<br />
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Merry Christmas! I had a fantastic Christmas, it was fun to celebrate with family. I love my nieces and nephews and it is always so magical to watch them experience everything Christmas brings.<br />
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I very thankful I was able to be home for a few days before the holiday. I spent four days in the hospital prior to Christmas. Once again, I had trouble with a GI bleed. I think it will always be a challenge in my life, hopefully with the right medication and good doctors I can manage the problems that come with my fun blood clotting disorder!<br />
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I am so thankful for my Mom and the traditions that we have during the holidays. We had a wonderful dinner, opened presents and played a fun game with everyone except Mike and the girls. I wish that he had been able to be here. It is so hard when family is out of state. I wish we could have been all together.<br />
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My little Niece Ellie got an American Girl doll from Santa. She was sitting on the couch talking to me and she said. "Aunt Karley, this came from Santa because it cost 100 bucks and my Mom and Dad don't have that much money" It was so cute! She is so much fun. I love that little ones believe! It is such a fun time and they grow up so fast. I asked her if she wanted to come and have a sleep over with me. She said that would be sooo fun! I asked what we would do and she said, well we would pop some popcorn, watch a movie, and eat some candy..... I told her that works for me. It will be fun to spend some time with her, she is so much fun!<br />
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I cannot believe that Madisen and Parker are 16 years old. It seems like yesterday they were just little babies. It makes me feel so old! I love all of them, they are fun and are "a few of my favorite things" in this life.<br />
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This season is somewhat bittersweet for me. My Dad passed away ten years ago in January. He was so sick with lung cancer and I just remember that last holiday when he struggled just to talk to me on the phone. It was so hard for him to breathe. I am thankful for the knowledge I have that I will see him again one day. It is the only way to get through death in this life. I am grateful for the gospel and all of the blessings it affords each of us.<br />
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I am looking forward to the new year, my only New Year's resolution is to be healthy and back at work soon! It has been so hard being home and I look forward to the day I can get back to work and busy again!<br />
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I am most thankful this season for the birth of our Savior. I am grateful for that baby that came to earth so that we might live. I am thankful for all He blesses me with, I love my Savior and there are no words to adequately express my love for Him.<br />
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I hope that all of us will remember to keep the spirit of Christmas in our hearts not just at this time of year but throughout each and every day.<br />
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I love you all and am thankful for your love and kindness in my behalf!<br />
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Let's talk soon!<br />
KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-8722919674467780272011-12-18T22:44:00.000-08:002011-12-18T22:44:08.137-08:00My 12 wishes for ChristmasHello Everyone,<br />
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I decided to share with you my 12 wishes for Christmas tonight. They are personal and they are mine. I know that many of us share different beliefs about a variety of things both temporal and spiritual. So, know that these wishes come from my heart, they are my hopes and dreams for Christmas.<br />
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1. I wish for comfort. I wish I could soften peoples hearts and provide comfort for everyone. It is my hope personally that I can recognize the comfort that He sends me on a daily basis and apply it to my life and the lives of those I love.<br />
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2. I wish I could talk to my Dad. There are so many things I want to tell him right now. I miss him and I love him and he left too soon. There has been so much time that has passed by and yet it just seems like yesterday he died. I wish I could give him one more hug and tell him I love him.<br />
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3. I wish to thank Paul and Lynette Cardall, good friends who teach me what it means to become more like Him, the Lord has blessed my life with such good friends and although I don't keep in touch like I should, I sure hope they know I love them!<br />
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4. I wish I could hold my baby. Right now she lives with my Heavenly Father. Oh how I miss her, I wish I could rock her to sleep, see her smile and watch her grow. But that will have to wait for another season. I love you little one!<br />
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5. I wish to laugh more in the next year. I love to be happy and to laugh. Sometimes life is so tough and it feels so good to laugh! <br />
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6. I wish to thank my ward, my Bishop and other leaders and friends there. I am home and I belong in this ward, and in my house, I am so thankful to be here and know this is where my Heavenly Father wants me to be.<br />
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7. I wish for broken hearts to mend. Mine included, I am alone again, a failed marriage, the loss of two children (my baby and little Ethan) I want to open my heart to love again but I don't know how and I am afraid.<br />
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8. I wish for peace in each of our hearts. That we can find through our struggles and often heartache the peace that the Savior has for each of us.<br />
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9. I wish to thank the Savior for my family, for 2 fathers who have loved me in this life, for brothers who support me, a Mother who is truly my best friend, and my sister and nieces and nephews who I love so much.<br />
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10. I wish for Zoey my basset hound to be put on puppy Prozac...LOL She drives me nuts, but I love her dearly! She is a character!<br />
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11. I wish for my health to heal. That in the spring I can resume working full time, have energy and participate in more serving and church activities. I wish my for my voice to find it's way home so that I can sing again.<br />
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I2. I wish that my Father in Heaven will always know how thankful I am for Him. For His Son, Jesus Christ. For that little baby who came to earth for me. For His atoning sacrifice and Crucifixion in my behalf. I hope He will always know of my infinite love for Him and for the greatest gift I have ever been given.<br />
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I hope you all know how much you mean to me. My life is so full with all of my friends and family. I am a better person everyday because of your examples in my life. I am grateful for this season and for the beautiful gifts we each are given in each other. I love you all. Merry Christmas!<br />
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Let's talk soon and keep in touch!<br />
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Love,<br />
KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-32015320560992791012011-12-16T22:57:00.000-08:002011-12-16T23:08:39.603-08:00"Let There Be Peace On Earth"Hello Family and Friends,<br />
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I so cannot believe that Christmas is almost a week away! It is crazy how fast the holidays go by! I am finished with the little Christmas shopping that I have done for this year. I love the feelings that Christmas brings, I wish we had them all year long.<br />
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I have laughed my head off these past couple of weeks. I love my family. They all have such great sense of humors. My sister Katie and I are pretty much twins only separated by a couple of years. I love being able to laugh with her and plan on seeing her and baby Richard soon! It is awesome to be so close to someone that we actually can finish each other's sentences... I wish she lived closer!<br />
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My niece's and nephews are great! I love celebrating the holidays with them. I cannot believe some of them are teenagers... Time goes by so fast.<br />
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I miss my Dad so much right now. This is the time of year (11 years ago) that he was terminally ill with cancer. It is strange to think how long ago it was, it some ways it seems like it was just yesterday. I remember the flights up to see him and the emotions of not knowing when he would pass away or knowing there was nothing I could do to fix what the future held. I loved his sense of humor, even when he was really sick he made me laugh. I miss him. I miss being able to pick up the phone and hear his voice. I am thankful however that he is out of pain and resting with our Heavenly Father.<br />
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I love the song "Let there be peace on Earth" it is so fitting this time of year. This season for people I love, I wish this for them. I have several close friends that are struggling right now, I wish so much that they could find peace. I have so much in my life that I thankful for, I am so lucky and my heart aches for the pain that I see others going through.<br />
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I have a friend who just lost a son. His funeral is four days before Christmas. Her heart is breaking and I can't fix it for her. If I could I would trade hearts with her, to give hers a rest.<br />
Another friend is in the hospital with mental problems. She is struggling so much to make it day by day, I wish I could ease the pain that she has in her heart. I have a friend who is struggling spiritually, he feels alone and lost in this world, I wish he could believe in himself like I believe in him and yet he chooses to pull away, I pray everyday for him. I know of families that will have little or no Christmas this year. I wish I could afford to help them financially feel confident that things will be okay. I have friends that are sad because the holidays are stressful for them for many different reasons. I wish I could wrap my arms around them and tell them everything will be okay.<br />
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On my way home tonight I heard the song "Let there be peace on Earth" I teared up. The second line in the song states "and let it begin with me" My prayer for the holiday season is simple. I pray that each one of us can find peace and that each one of us can "let it begin with me". That we can each find ways of serving those around us. For that is the true spirit of Christmas.<br />
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In a world full of turmoil and heartache, let's look out for each other. Comfort each other, pray for each other, go the extra mile and remember that tiny baby who made it possible for us to do.<br />
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Have a great weekend. I love you all!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-75338020266261313572011-12-11T00:57:00.000-08:002011-12-11T00:57:54.238-08:00My Holiday HeartHello friends and family,<br />
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The title of my blog "My Holiday Heart" is very fitting today... I have looked forward to all of the holidays this year. Christmas is my favorite of course. I love the decorations, the lights and most of all the reason we have Christmas. I am thankful so much for the birth of our Savior and his love for each one of us!<br />
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I have been pretty happy lately. I have so much to be thankful for. However the past couple of days have hit my heart so hard. I have cried and cried over the past couple of years... leading up until just a couple of days ago. I miss my baby. She would have been 2 in September and I often wonder what we would be doing, what she would look like, does she miss me as much I miss her? It is so hard. I wish I could hold her and tell her how much I love her. I don't talk about it much because it is so painful and close to my heart. All I have ever wanted was to be a wife and a mother. Both of those dreams were short lived and I am sad. <br />
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I think about my marriage that failed. There are so many things I wish could have been different. I miss Ethan with all of my heart. I miss the companionship and waking up next to someone. It is so different now. It makes so sad. I know it was the right thing to do, it doesn't mean that it hurts less though knowing that. <br />
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I think about my health and how long it is taking for me to heal. I know I am almost there, I just want to be back to work and regain my social life. I am going to be inside most of the winter and that makes me crazy to think about. I will be so happy when spring comes and hopefully a wonderful job with it!!<br />
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I think about my family and how much I love them. My parents have been so supportive and loving with me. I am thankful for my ward family, they are the best and I am SO lucky to live in my little home and be in such a wonderful place.<br />
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I think about my friends that are struggling. I hurt for them. I want them to be happy! I want them to feel whole. It is hard to see people you love in pain. I pray for them every night so that they might feel peace.<br />
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When I think about this season I am thankful for my Holiday Heart. It is not perfect by any means, I am grateful that I can learn from the good times and the not so good times. I am thankful for all of you, you are some of my most priceless gifts!<br />
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Let's talk soon!<br />
KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-3652158956584709612011-12-06T22:56:00.000-08:002011-12-06T22:56:54.718-08:00What the winds left behind!Hello friends and family,<br />
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I hope you are all well and happy! Last week the weather was crazy. I think Mother Nature was having some kind of mental breakdown, she sure was mad at something to leave Davis County in such a state!<br />
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Zoey, my crazy dog, needed some form of Prozac, she was scared to death and barked almost the whole time the wind blew. I was ready at one point to send her outside to play.... The only problem is I was afraid someone would find her in Provo and send her back...LOL<br />
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I cannot believe how much damage was done to our county. I was very lucky that only a portion of my fence blew down. So many people lost so much, I really feel for each of them. <br />
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I was very humbled at the service and kindness of a community pulling together to help each other. I love, love, love the members of my ward and neighborhood that jumped into action to help one another. I live in the best place. I love my home, my friends and family that surround me and am very grateful for each of them. What a blessing to live here.<br />
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The amount of trees we lost is devastating! In church on Sunday we just had sacrament meeting. One of the sisters in our ward was bearing her testimony and talking about the narrow and limited roots that hold up mighty pine trees. She went on to say that the foundation of those mighty trees are small and when tested with challenge they could not withstand the storm. <br />
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The foundations of our lives can be compared to that of a mighty pine. We need constant nourishment and continued learning to keep our foundations strong so that when the winds blow we can withstand the mighty storms based on firm and solid foundations in our lives.<br />
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I am thankful for the storms that have blown through my life for they teach me to continue building a foundation that my Father in Heaven will be proud of.<br />
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I went to the Cardiologist and Pulmonologist today to find out my fate.... It looks like I will be spending most of the winter inside. I started crying when they told me. I was hoping one of them would tell me something different and I would go with that..... but no luck. The doc's said that because the right side of my heart is not functioning due to lack of oxygen, and my lungs are very compromised due to the amount of damage done by the PE's the healing process is taking longer than expected. So...... he said I need to stay in as much as possible and stay away from places and people that I could catch even a simple cold from.... If I am really good for the next three months I can then go back to work and get on with my life.... I am so tired of being sick and yet grateful for everything I have been given. When I do go out they want me to wear a mask,(not thinking that will happen), but I will wear a scarf and bundle up! I also get to have a little oxygen at night again for a few months..... I am bummed out, but it is so much better than it has been in two years. I look forward to spring and the promise that I will go back to a normal life again.. I will be so happy the day I can get up and go to work. For now, I will patient and get up and serve Heavenly Father in the best way that I can.<br />
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Well that is about all that is new with me. I would LOVE you all to come and visit this winter! Please give me a call and let's talk soon!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-17681690546186186362011-11-30T22:17:00.000-08:002011-11-30T22:17:42.091-08:00"The Prayer"Hello friends and family,<br />
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I am beyond humbled tonight for the grace and the knowledge that our prayers are answered by a loving Heavenly Father. I am so thankful for the blessings of the temple and how close the veil truly is. I have been searching for an answer for months, I actually have been searching for many answers, but this particular one has been on my mind since the end of July. I have prayed, fasted, prayed, cried, prayed some more, became frustrated at bumps in the road, and wondered why? on several occasions.<br />
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Today I have an answer, it is not how I thought it would come, or what I planned on it being. It is better! It will be harder and I am sure more bumps in the road our on their way. But I know what direction I will take. Will it be easy? I don't think so.... Will I know exactly what to say or do? I don't think so.... I do know that my Father in Heaven is with me on this journey. That family members are with me on this journey, some here on earth and some in heaven. <br />
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I posted the song "The Prayer" each word is very fitting. I am thankful for the power of prayer and for the answers that wait until we are ready for them. <br />
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The experience I have had is far to sacred to share, but I know He lives, He listens and He loves us! I am certain of that!! <br />
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As November comes to a close, I want to thank all of you for your prayers and support that you have so lovingly given me during the past couple of years. The struggles are still there ,but are getting better everyday. I am thankful for each of you. I hope that one day I can repay the kindness shown to me by all of you.<br />
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Happy Holidays<br />
Let's talk soon!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-41979071251319418752011-11-30T21:59:00.000-08:002011-11-30T21:59:02.702-08:00THE PRAYER with Lyrics_Celine Dion & Andrea Bocelli<iframe height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Yu3o8W5JMuU?fs=1" frameborder="0" width="459" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>Karley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-28259718212344528922011-11-21T10:04:00.000-08:002011-11-21T10:04:50.502-08:00I Am Thankful For The ThornsHello family and friends,<br />
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This month has gone by so fast. I cannot believe it is Thanksgiving this week. I am so thankful for everything that I have been blessed with in this life. I have an awesome family, wonderful parents and siblings! I have fantastic friends who teach me so much. I love you all. Words cannot adequately express how thankful I am for the Savior and my Father in Heaven. These gifts are priceless to me. I am one lucky girl.<br />
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This morning my friend posted a story that touched me so much. There have been times in my life when I have struggled with things that have happened to me. I know my Father in Heaven loves me and yet sometimes I do not understand why certain events take place. This story has really changed my perspective and I would like to share it with you....<br />
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<div class="actorDescription actorName" data-ft="{"type":2}"><a data-hovercard="/ajax/hovercard/user.php?id=1244363054" href="https://www.facebook.com/tarastarling"><span style="color: #3b5998;">Tara Starling</span></a></div><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"><div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed">BE THANKFUL FOR THE THORNS<br />
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Sandra felt as low as the heels of her shoes when she pulled open the florist shop door, against a November gust of wind. Her life had been as sweet as a spring breeze and then, in the fourth month of her second pregnancy, a "minor" automobile accident stole her joy. <br />
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This was Thanksgiving week and the time she should have delivered their infant son. She grieved over t<span class="text_exposed_show">heir loss. Troubles had multiplied. Her husband's company "threatened" to transfer his job to a new location. Her sister had called to say that she could not come for her long awaited holiday visit. <br />
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What's worse, Sandra's friend suggested that Sandra's grief was a God-given path to maturity that would allow her to empathize with others who suffer. "She has no idea what I'm feeling," thought Sandra with a shudder. "Thanksgiving? Thankful for what?" she wondered. "For a careless driver whose truck was hardly scratched when he rear-ended her? For an airbag that saved her life, but took her child's?"<br />
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"Good afternoon, can I help you?" Sandra was startled by the approach of the shop clerk. "I need an arrangement," stammered Sandra. "For Thanksgiving? I'm convinced that flowers tell stories," she continued. "Are you looking for something that conveys 'gratitude' this Thanksgiving?" "Not exactly!" Sandra blurted out. "In the last five months, everything that could go wrong has gone wrong."Sandra regretted her outburst, and was surprised when the clerk said, have the perfect arrangement for you." Then the bell on the door rang, and the clerk greeted the new customer, "Hi, Barbara, let me get your order." <br />
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She excused herself and walked back to a small workroom, then quickly reappeared, carrying an arrangement of greenery, bows, and what appeared to be long-stemmed thorny roses. Except the ends of the rose stems were neatly snipped; there were no flowers.<br />
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"Do you want these in a box?" asked the clerk. Sandra watched was this a joke? Who would want rose stems with no flowers! She waited for laughter, but neither woman laughed. "Yes, please," Barbara replied with an appreciative smile. "You'd think after three years of getting the special, I wouldn't be so moved by its significance, but I can feel it right here, all over again," she said, as she gently tapped her chest. <br />
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Sandra stammered, "Ah, that lady just left with… uh… she left with no flowers!" "That's right," said the clerk. "I cut off the flowers. That's the 'Special'. I call it the Thanksgiving Thorns Bouquet. Barbara came into the shop three years ago, feeling much as you do today," explained the clerk. "She thought she had very little to be thankful for. <br />
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She had just lost her father to cancer; the family business was failing; her son had gotten into drugs; and she was facing major surgery. That same year I had lost my husband," continued the clerk. "For the first time in my life, I had to spend the holidays alone. I had no children, no husband, no family nearby, and too much debt to allow any travel.""So what did you do?" asked Sandra.<br />
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"I learned to be thankful for thorns," answered the clerk quietly. "I've always thanked God for the good things in my life and I never questioned Him why those good things happened to me, but when the bad stuff hit, I cried out, 'Why? Why me?!' <br />
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It took time for me to learn that the dark times are important to our faith! I have always enjoyed the 'flowers' of my life, but it took the thorns to show me the beauty of God's comfort! You know, the Bible says that God comforts us when we're afflicted, and from His consolation we learn to comfort others." Sandra sucked in her breath, as she thought about what her friend had tried to tell her. "I guess the truth is I don't want comfort. I've lost a baby and I'm angry with God."<br />
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Just then someone else walked in the shop.Hey, Phil!" the clerk greeted the balding, rotund man.<br />
"My wife sent me in to get our usual Thanksgiving arrangement twelve thorny, long-stemmed stems!" laughed Phil as the clerk handed him a tissue wrapped arrangement from the refrigerator.<br />
"Those are for your wife?" asked Sandra incredulously. "Do you mind telling me why she wants a bouquet that looks like that?"<br />
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Four years ago, my wife and I nearly divorced," Phil replied. "After forty years, we were in a real mess, but with the Lord's grace and guidance, we trudged through problem after problem, the Lord rescued our marriage. Jenny here (the clerk) told me she kept a vase of rose stems to remind her of what she had learned from "thorny" times. That was good enough for me. I took home some of those stems. My wife and I decided to label each one for a specific "problem" and give thanks for what that problem taught us." As Phil paid the clerk, he said to Sandra, "I highly recommend the Special!"<br />
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I don't know if I can be thankful for the thorns in my life" Sandra said to the clerk. "It's all too… fresh." "Well," the clerk replied carefully, "my experience has shown me that the thorns make the roses more precious. We treasure God's providential care more during trouble than at any other time. Remember that it was a crown of thorns that Jesus wore so we might know His love. Don't resent the thorns."Tears rolled down Sandra's cheeks. <br />
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For the first time since the accident, she loosened her grip on her resentment. "I'll take those twelve long-stemmed thorns, please," she managed to choke out. "I hoped you would," said the clerk gently. "I'll have them ready in a minute." "Thank you. What do I owe you?" "Nothing, Nothing but a promise to allow God to heal your heart. The first year's arrangement is always on me."<br />
The clerk smiled and handed a card to Sandra. "I'll attach this card to your arrangement, but maybe you would like to read it first."<br />
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It read: "My God, I have never thanked You for my thorns. I have thanked You a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorns. Teach me the glory of the cross I bear; teach me the value of my thorns. Show me that I have climbed closer to You along the path of pain. Show me that, through my tears, the colors of Your rainbow look much more brilliant." Praise Him for the roses; thank Him for the thorns. God Bless all of you. Be thankful for all that the Lord does for you.<br />
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I am so thankful for all of the thorns in my life, for all of the blessings and for the lessons I learn from each thorn. I am thankful for the crown of thorns that was worn by my Savior and for the profound sacrifice He bore for me.</span></div><span class="text_exposed_show"><div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed"><br />
This season and everyday my wish for all of you is this... Be thankful for the beautiful thorns in your lives and the lessons that teach us what love is really all about.</div><div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed"><br />
</div><div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed">Happy Thanksgiving!</div><div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed"><br />
</div><div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed">Karley</div></span></span>Karley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-55015493952266256512011-11-18T00:05:00.000-08:002011-11-18T00:05:03.075-08:00It is All About Love.....Hello friends and family,<br />
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I hope everyone is doing well and looking forward to Thanksgiving with family and friends. This is my Mom's year to have Thanksgiving at her house. Everyone will be there except for Mike, Vanessa and the girls. I really wish that they could be here as well. It is hard when family is far away, I miss them and wish that could be with all of us!<br />
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I held my friend and neighbor's baby little Anna today. I teared up holding her and thinking about how much love little ones provide to each of us. She was happy listening to me talk baby talk to her and smiled at just about everything. I love little Anna so much, Amber is like a sister to me. I am so blessed to have such great friends! Once again, I am so thankful for where I live, I have the best friends and neighbors here.<br />
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This month I have been writing one thing everyday that I am thankful for. I really should do this every day of the year. I am so blessed and thankful to the Savior for everything He has done for me. I know he hears me and answers my prayers.<br />
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Over the past couple of weeks I have had such an interesting chain of events happen. They have been very hurtful and somewhat difficult to understand. I wanted to run away from all of it because I hate drama, however, that is just not what my Heavenly Father wants me to do. Instead I was given wise counsel to "love more" With that counsel and other promptings my feet are firmly planted no matter how hard the winds blow as I work with someone I care for very much through a storm that has had many twists and turns is the past two weeks. I am thankful for the leaders of our church, for their examples and advice. I know I could not be strong enough on my own without them and a loving Savior. As President Hinckley stated "It is now time to get busy and get to work!" Wish me luck!<br />
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I also have been sweetly reminded of the love that surrounds all of us during our lives. In good times and in bad we are given each other, our families and friends to walk with us along the road less traveled. ( Thanks Scott Peck for the book!)<br />
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I think about the atoning sacrifice that the Savior bore for each one of us. It brings tears to my eyes and heart to think about the great drops of blood He bore for me. There are no words to express my love for Him.<br />
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I have felt so much love as I have struggled to regain my health again. I have turned a corner and then this week took a few steps back. When I was walking out of the hospital I was near tears and when I go into my car I simply ask why is this still happening to me. At that very moment in the hospital parking lot my heart was filled with such love and peace. I know that I am supposed to learn something from all of this. (I sure hope I learn quickly) I am at peace knowing that I have a warm and cozy home to live in, people who love me and friends that are there whenever I need them. It is really is all about love in this life and I am so thankful for every second I am here to learn.<br />
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I am thankful for this time of year. I love the seasons and am excited for the snow! I hope you have a great weekend and let's talk soon!<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-69652534832700853692011-11-13T20:42:00.000-08:002011-11-13T20:42:42.371-08:00Oceans Of TearsHello Family and Friends,<br />
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I love this quote that I heard during the week, it states "There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” - Washington Irving<br />
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This past week I have cried so many tears. They have been happy tears, sad tears, tears of confusion and tears of concern. I believe that it is healthy for us to cry. Hilary Weeks wrote a song a few years back titled "Just let Me Cry" that song is everything in a nutshell to the feelings I have had this past week.<br />
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It is heart wrenching to see someone you have come to love hurting. The hardest part for me is knowing that I would do anything to help them and yet can do nothing to change what they are going through. I wish I had a magic wand to wave away all the pain that sometimes has a way of sneaking into our lives.<br />
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I love laughing so hard that you cry... (and almost wet your pants LOL) I am so happy for the gift of laughter in our lives. This week my sister Katie has called at just the right moments and turned a sad moment into one that we end up laughing about until we are sick! It is nice to have those kind of tears! They are always welcome here!<br />
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I have felt frustrated with my health this past week. I am still so far away from where I want to be. But then I am so far ahead of where I have been that I cannot complain. I am thankful beyond words for my family, the church and all of you that have been so supportive of me during this difficult two years. I am really looking forward to next year and praying that I can get back to normal... whatever that is.:)<br />
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Tears of confusion is a new one for me. I will not go into any detail about this for it is a very sensitive subject for one of my friends. I do pray for them everyday that life can be less stressful and more content for them.. It is very hard to watch life unravel for someone you love. However, how blessed we are to know of the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the sacrifice that he bore for each one of us.<br />
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Tears are good for the soul! I am thankful for them and for the release it gives our hearts. I love you all and hope that you have a fantastic week!<br />
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Let's talk soon<br />
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KarleyKarley's Cornerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16691134013288644993noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2034001802366486947.post-74105925003852546732011-11-06T18:51:00.000-08:002011-11-06T18:51:17.575-08:00A New Day!Hello family and friends,<br />
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Well where do I begin? This past week has been the longest I can remember having! It seems like last week went on and on and on.... I am glad it over to be honest with you! One thing I can say is that I will be just dandy this week if there are no big surprises or drama! You know the saying.... Save the drama for your mama! (Although my mom does not need any drama, so if you have anything come up don't call my "mama" call your own. :) <br />
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I have decided that I am putting my Christmas tree up this week! I love the holiday season and being in my home with Christmas everywhere! It is a ton of work to put it up and always makes me sad to take it down. This season I want to enjoy the holidays so up it goes a little early!<br />
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I will find out this week if I am going to be sequestered to my home during the cold weather. My lungs are so compromised that the doc's are thinking that again this year... This does not make me happy. I long for the day of getting up feeling great and going to work.<br />
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I have cried enough tears that I could be swimming in my own ocean of them soon. When I say it has been a long week, it actually has been a very hard and distressing week. Those of you who know me well, know that I wear my heart on my sleeve and am a huge worry wart! This week takes the cake in that arena! I won't bore you with details but I have to say that my heart has physically hurt with some of things that have happened.<br />
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My telephone rang at a little after 5am today, I called my friend right back and no answer. It was startling and worrisome! I have not been able to get an answer all day! So friend, you know who you are, if you read this you had better call me you little bugger! Remember my middle name "worry"<br />
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The reason I chose to name tonight's blog "A New Day" is that I am anxious to have one. It is nice that we can press forward during times we do not fully comprehend. <br />
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Well I know this is a random blog post.... My mind is a little all over the place. I am thankful during this season for good friends and family. For the gospel of Jesus Christ and for the knowledge that there will always be a new day!<br />
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Let's talk soon!<br />
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