I am sitting here looking out my window and the rain in pouring down outside. As grateful as I should be for the moisture... enough already! Maybe this will be the year we will have snow in the mountains that will last until next Christmas!
In the last week I have cried my own river of tears... It has been a long nine months of being seperated and then all of a sudden I am in a different place once again. Moving into a new phase of life is difficult and change isn't always easy for me. Our divorce was necessary! that I have no doubt about. However, I feel like such a failure in so many ways. I want to have a family, kids, a husband to love and take care of. I just wish he had wanted the same things I did. I miss what I never had, and am envious of those who have someone that loves them back.
I feel tired! My heart is acting up a bit! There is nothing quite like looking like your grandma wearing ted-hose around the house to keep from getting canckles!
I am excited to have my friend, Michele from OHS coming in town next week for a visit. It will be fun to chat face to face instead of skype and the phone!
I feel very blessed for every tear I have cried, because, there is a lesson to be learned from each one. However, I am hoping for less tears and more laughs!
We will talk soon!