This is my first offical blog ever! I decided to have a blog that I could write and keep family and friends updated on what is going on in my life. It has been a very rough and yet tender couple of years for me. My marriage has ended (the divorce is not final yet) I don't believe for one second you go into a marriage ever thinking that divorce will happen to you. Well it did, and it hurts, and I have learned more about myself than I ever thought possible during this trial.
I also have literally struggled to stay alive in the past year. I have suffered two major PE's in both lungs (blood clots that traveled through my heart and into my lungs) I also was in a car accident almost a year ago that has effected my health for life. I joke about owning a wing at my favorite resort "McKay Dee Hospital" but it has been hard and I have wondered at times how I could go on. I have had serious complications due to Type 1 diabetes as a result of all of the other stress my body has gone through, not to mention a mass behind my heart that had to be removed. During this time I have shed thousands of tears, I have feared the worst and I have been blessed beyond comprehension at the love of my Savior and such a wonderful family and friends who have walked, cried and held me up when I felt weak. I am thankful for the atonement of Jesus Christ and for the love that He has given me.
I am a better person because of the trials I have faced. I love more, I am more patient, I trust more and I am humbled that I have been given such lessons to teach me these things.
I have to thank my Mom and Dad, without loving parents I would not be here. I can count on my Mom who is my best friend day and night. I know it has been hard for her to watch me struggle, but she is one of the most compassionate and loving people I know. I love her so much. Most people have only one father, I was blessed with two. My biological dad was in and out of my life and that is how it was as achild. He passed away nine years ago and while I love him for many things, my father in this life has been Chuck. He and my Mom were married about 16 years ago. We all grew up in the same ward. It was hard for me at first, even as an adult to understand what his role would be in my life. I now know that he is the Dad that I always always have wanted to have and never had that chance with my father growing up. He is funny, he is kind and he loves me. For that I am so humbled and thankful to my Father in Heaven.
To my friends, what would I do without you! Thank you for making me laugh! There have times where there are two choices laughter or tears... thank you for showing me the laughter through the tears. I love you all.
Well I am going to sign off for now, as I learn more about this whole blogging thing, I will post pictures. We will talk later.....